Again I rise from the grave sleep of silence...

Again I rise from the grave sleep of silence...
Wiping out traces from the salt of my eyes....
Again I fly from the exaggeration of contentment....
Rolling out weeds from the masked skies...
I ash frustrations of my pain
I sit back and break down in vein
I rule out most of them
Some remain
I die ...I breathe
I breathe harsh wind of blame....
Again I rise from the grave sleep of silence...
Rolling out weeds from the masked skies...

"hows" and "whys"

After an outstretched span of time, last month I boarded a train. Geetanjali Express, from Kolkata to Mumbai. On a ballpark figure around 31 hrs were scheduled to cover the distance, and to surprise me it took exactly the same time.

Amazed!! newayz the matter in hand is something else. During my recent foray, I withstood a couple of unexplored impulses, conjoining to open an unfathomed portal in front of me...

I was dismayed by some hows and whys. How can one meet a stranger and get bonded like they cognize each other for long, they speak their heart out, try to understand the other one and finally after departure keeping contact and becoming gud pals... is it destined?? no its not, coz we walk that extra mile... make an effort to reach out and talk...

Then comes my way another "why" as a counterfoil, and makes me think why "us" I mean all of us can not do the same with mortal souls around us...??!!

There were so many blanks, which could have been filled, so much dead air, which could have been talked out...but we realize once its gone...time, opportunity and love...

I envision it now, when every possible door's closed, blank dreams with dismayed visions. Much affliction on every turn, tight lipped in thoughts and every other tick of time brings a turmoil....I dream me in a place where am falling, falling from nowhere, with all dark around, screams....and am falling....heart thumping faster than ever, sweating and panicking.....ohh GOD, just take me out of this....

I wake up to remember every inch of it, the dream haunts me in daylight as well, only if can undo everything and make everything ideal...everything all right....But I fall flat....

Have you ever been through this, pain, agony and grief...where time stops to decades, every sec seems to delay by decades, thoughts seems to freeze for ever.....Do u have the answers to your "hows" and "whys".???? I do not....